July 8, 2014

Miracles.  You can do anything for 30 seconds.  My New Family

I was watching a TV show today and a patient received DBS and I started crying.  There are many reasons why I started crying – seeing the halo, seeing the Medtronic stimulator, hearing the doctor adjust the stimulators.  It was chilling and it reminded me of why I should spend every single day smiling.   It’s been sometime since I blogged but as always life got in the way.  In the last two weeks however, I have learned 2 important lessons:

1.  You can do anything you put your mind to…



I climbed the Great Wall of China…little old Dystonic me….it was such a miraculous day of days. I can’t begin to tell you the amount of emotions I had inside in me when I climbed that wall.  It was 100 degrees and I hadn’t done anything athletic in 6 weeks post my surgery that could really have prepared me for this steep and hilly climb.  There was self doubt, there was trepidation and then I thought to myself what were the locals thinking as they built this wall?  I CAN do this..and I did…I was sore for days after but I believed I could and I did.  Carrie climbed the Great Wall – check off the bucket list yay!

2.  You can do anything for 30 seconds.


One of my very good friends just opened up a Barry’s Bootcamp in my neighborhood and according to US Weekly it is one of “The Hottest Fitness Trends”, so of course I had to try it!  I went to my first class several weeks ago and it all looked so scary to me treadmills, risers, weights and my first thought was “I try everything once and if it’s too much at least I tried”.  Well 3 weeks later, I am still at it…It is difficult and when one of the instructors say go at a speed of 9.0, a 6.0 is just fine for me…i feel stronger every day, there are days when I am frustrated with my legs and then I push through and I build muscle.  Barry’s has become my family, a place where the instructors remind me you can do anything for 30 seconds; don’t stop you have this…and I never do because seriously you can do anything for 30 seconds.

One of my other favorite sayings is you have to work hard to achieve results.  They are right nothing in life is ever easy.  Deciding on brain surgery wasn’t easy.  Going through the surgery was the easy part, putting in the work post recovery was the tough part.  Going through battery changes, those are emotionally tough but you know what after every surgery I get stronger, and a little smarter.  Thank you Adam, Tara, Shauna, Erica and Alvin for pushing me for those last 30 seconds and reminding me to believe in myself.

So, I am back slowly getting in shape.  Still celebrating my wins of DBS and still learning every day over and over how to live in a normal world when even though I may look “normal” I am not. I suffer from Dystonia.  So bootcamp has taught me a lesson, attack every problem with all your strength, push through, believe in yourself and if you fall get back up and know you are a little stronger!


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