I am back. I think. Goals, Finish Lines, Training. Last week on vacation as I was running around the deck of a cruise ship (12 times); I felt like I was missing something in my life. And then it dawned on me. I miss racing. I miss training. I miss validating to myself that I am strong. That I can still cross finishing lines. Piece of me has been missing and on lap 8 it occurred to me I need to race again. I have been in and out of doctor’s appointments the last several weeks thinking my battery was dying, thinking my dystonia is getting worse instead of thinking I have a race coming up…I NEED TO BE STRONG! Everyone thinks I do these races to prove to everyone I can do it, but the reality is these races aret to prove to myself that I can do it. I will never run a 9 minute mile and I will never be able to run a race at my boyfriend’s pace but I am proud that I CAN lace up and run with him. Every time my feet hit the ground I remember that I am thankful for the chance that I can do it. So last week I decided I will do a half marathon this year, I will stop my pity party and I will still keep on fighting the Dystonia and remind myself every day how lucky I am!