May 15, 2013

In today’s boot camp class I had problems balancing…granted I am getting stronger but still felt like a weeble wobble who kept on leaning over…and my first thought was – do these people realize that i am handicapped and that’s why I can’t balance? should I wear a sign? and as my mind started to go there…a guy next to me lost his balance and I smiled…able bodied people lose their balance too..I sometimes hold myself to such a high standard due to my handicap, my disability which is hidden because I am a DBS Medtronic success but still neurologically dystonic..So many layers..but I just realized today I am just me – I weeble and I wobble but I never (cross fingers) ever fall.  So I decided in class today to embrace my miracle (x2) to remind myself 6 months ago I was on a cane and to laugh at myself when I fall, because at the end of the day – I workout 6x a week, people call me an athlete and just do the best I can because you know what I get out there every day and kick ass!  So as everyone was leaving class today, a couple of people came up to me and said I am sure you are doing Bay to Breakers, right? and I said yup, I am!  So weebles do wobble, but they can be sporty too 🙂