Strength. Courage. Girlfriends. New friends. I can do this. You are bigger than this hill every day of your life.
This was tough mudder. On October 9, 2010 my life changed. I climbed mountains, I hiked from 6,600 ft to 8,800 ft multiple times, I walked on a cliff around a mountain and I made it. I climbed fences, I crawled in mud, climbed over trucks, carried logs and I conquered every fear I ever had. At 8,800 feet I found happiness. On a complete vertical climb the kindness of strangers helped me physically get through challenges. From the woman that kept on saying you are bigger than this hill everyday to the man that gave me his hand and said it would be his honor to steady me up the hill, I learned there are plenty of amazing and kind people in this crazy world we live in.
To Liz and Carolyne – We have a new special bond, we are tough mudders despite our need to wear tutus! I needed both of you to make it to the top and bottom of these amazing mountains. You were my rocks…You both knew I had IT in me and never let me forget it, from the anaerobic lectures at 8,000 feet to Coach yelling at me and saying dig deep and jump the horse, you were both right – I had it in me and owned it every step of the way.
HB and crew thanks for the amazing hospitality you shared with us…Those orange jumpsuits were a big hit on the course!
And to our new friends – Chris, Markell, Ed and Josh, life always brings you pleasant surprises, you guys were an awesome cheerleading squad to have and now you are part of my crazy adventurous family. I loved having you guys there on my special day and hope to celebrate many more with you all!
October 9, 2010 – I realized what life is really about – it is realizing that I can do what I want, I am bigger than this disease, and I will never let this disease beat me! Also I can’t thank everyone enough for believing in me on the days that I doubted myself…I no longer doubt myself on October 9th, I learned I am strong enough to conquer physical and mental obstacles in life!
This will likely be my last post prior to my toughmudder race. Here is a link of some photos of the courses from the race…
I am so excited, I am so nervous, but I am ready. I wish I could have lost those last 5 lbs, done 10 more pushups but I could always be better…But today I can say I am strong enough to get this race completed. I want to thank everyone for believing in me, for sending me emails and for wishing me luck.
I am happy I had some time off to train and to get stronger. I always say when I run races that I run for those that can’t…this is different, this is for me…to push my physical and mental strength and to be the owner of my own destiny. Life is all about taking risks, enjoying the ride and looking back and smiling. This so far has been an awesome ride…I’ll be thinking of everyone near and dear to me when I cross the finish line soaking in mud …every one of my friends who signed up for the journey on April 4, 2006 and everyone that still continues to believe in me….
I rarely say that I am that person that just walks home smiling but today was that day! I am so lucky to be healthy and have the opportunity and the determination to put my mind to enter this tough mudder event. I am so excited to see my training at Equinox pay off. As I approach my fifth year anniversary of my DBS in six months I am truly thankful for the miracles of science, Medtronic and my amazing doctors – Dr. Tagliati and Dr. Alterman. And I am truly, truly thankful for Carolyne and Liz for believing in me and being amazing friends! Lastly, today while doing those final 20 pushups, I realized I was my own greatest enemy and that I could complete those last 20 — 100 pushups done and done! (well maybe 95)!
We are in the final weeks of training for my tough mudder race. With my stress fracture and not being to run, meet my new best friend –
The next two weeks are all about determination, focus and believing in myself. Every time I think, “what am I doing” , I respond to myself that I am challenging myself and doing things most of my “normal friends” don’t do! I am so excited and proud of myself for signing up for this race and attacking the hills on my spin bike to get ready! Thanks to Carolyne and Liz for doing this crazy race with me! After all this training, fitness is forever in my life! (the spin bike and I may take some time off, though 🙂 )
Believe in yourself! Sometimes we get caught up in our own heads or with what we think people think we should be doing. Fitness is about yourself, your goals and your desire to complete a race. Everyone is telling me that I can’t do the tough mudder or it may be too dangerous, but I define the way I complete this race, not a clock or not a finish tape…
Look out competitors…here I come, bring it!